Like A Boy

Once she is studying in the library. He comes in and goes downstairs. She may not be speaking to him, but she is upset that he did not stop and talk to her no matter that they are not speaking. She misses talking to him, but she is still too stubborn.

She had been speaking to a friend of hers about him. The friend tells her that maybe he does love her. The friend also tells her that maybe she is confused about how she feels about him. She tells her friend that he is too young and that she feels like she is back in high school. The friend tells her she needs to figure out how she feels about him. The friend tells her that she is being silly not speaking to the guy and that she needs to speak to him. So the girl decides that she will speak with him.

A friend of her convinces her to speak to him. So she decides to go ahead and do that. She decides that she will speak to him at the next class. As usual she puts on her workout clothes. She is always five minutes late to class. She puts her sunglasses on and goes to class with resolve that their dispute will be resolved or at least that she will talk to him. As usual when she walks into class he looks at her. And as usual he is staring at her through the classmates laptop monitor. So she writes one word on a piece of paper saying “stay.” He looks at it and nods his head. He stays. They walk out of class. She asks him does he understand why she felt the way she felt. Quietly he says he does, but she does not believe that he does. They then end in a conversation about him deciding what he is going to do for the summer and how he does not want to have to spend a lot of money for the summer. She asks him what he wants to do. He says that he is thinking about public interest and housing. She is completely shocked, but she keeps her composure. She tells him that he has a lot of contacts in housing particularly fair housing. He says that he is interested in landlord tenant. She tells him that they end up merging at difference points. He then says he has to go to his appointment. She knows the appointment is important, but she feels that he is rushing and does not want to spend time with her. She does not understand why that matters.

That afternoon she runs into his friend again. He mentions that he and some of the guys other friends had told the guy that they thought she was angry at him. Internally she is gleeful – they are talking about her. She is coming up in conversations – that means he is talking about her. She tells the friend about their conversation. The friend says that the guy does not understand why she may have been upset or angry even though he says he does. He says that the guy is way out there and just does not understand even if he says he does. They talk for a little longer but it is clear the friend feels uncomfortable talking about it. She does not want to give away to much or have him believing that he likes her.

Later she sees him talking to one of his friends. She figures that it is time that she reciprocate his past hand holding antics. She goes up to him and tucks her arm in his.He jolts like he has been shocked with electricity. She does not understand his reaction. Was he surprised, was he pleased, did he not know how to react? Whatever the truth may be, she feels rejected. He is running his mouth as usual. He keeps juggling his books. She offers to hold his books for a minute. He thanks her but tells her he is okay. While he may be she does not take that too well. She has been feeling vulnerable. She makes a smart comment to him and leaves.