And Now Nothing's The Same

The next day she plans to attend a speech by a prominent lesbian attorney. She walks through the corridor to the auditorium. She passes him as she walks by. He is chatting with his friends and planning to go to the lounge to have lunch – his lunch is in his hands. He looks at her but she does not look at him. She remembers that she forgot her outline she so leaves the auditorium and walks back to her office. He sees her, but she keeps walking. She gets her outline and goes back to the auditorium. A male acquaintance sits next to her. They strike up a conversation. Later she notices that a classmate who loves to debate is seated behind her. The speaker begins her presentation. A turns around to make a comment to the other classmate. When she turns around she sees the guy is seated in the back row and he is looking at her. Her heart skips a beat, but she has to maintain a poker face. She acts like she does not see him, but she cannot believe that he is there. She passes notes and chats with the classmate several times. Not because she really wants to talk to him, but because she wants to see that guy. Each time she turns around she sees him looking intently at her. One time he is shaking his head in disgust over the comments made by the speaker. It is then that she realizes that he is only there because he wanted to see her because she knows that his views are contrary to the speakers. After all he is an ultra conservative. She wonders why they cannot just talk to each other and be together. She is no longer paying any attention to the speaker or her outline. She talks to the classmate seated next her only because she has to. Her thoughts are only on the guy. Then she turns around a final time and she does not see him. She is disappointed. She misses him and their conversations. She misses seeing his face. She looks around, but he is gone. She is disappointed and deflated.